posted by lois @ 1:26 AM
Monday, March 20, 2006
I've been blessed. truly blessed. i'm here to share with anyone who still checks my site once in a while..heehe i'm still alive =) but wow. i've experience something just amazing this weekend and i would love to share it with everyone!!! =) God's love is amazing. how much he's changed me ...how much he's shown me. i'm just in awe . soo yesss. my relationship with God. i've been struggling so much. just so much. nothing made sense to me back then. but now...he opened my eyes. 8) hehe ..just like that .he's BLESSED me with the most amazing-est ppl i've ever known. i don't know how he does it..but i'm just amazed by the overflowing love he pours to us. i've been blessed by a friend, andrea, who's shown me so much. just so much. so much about God. we've shared so much together..our struggles, our weaknesses, and just having someone there to talk about our relationship with God. it's just amazing. just that support from someone who I can always look up to. who keeps me on track. making sure i do my devotions..just experiencing God. =) i'm just amazed. thank you andrea. also, today, i went to lkcc and i was just touched by a sister's testimony. i felt like i was like JUST in her shoes the past 18 years of my life. struggling....trying to find His UNFAILING love. but yess it's been such a stuggle for me to really accept that love. and yeah. i feel totally like a differnet person..lifted up by his grace. hes' shown me so much at western. and kcf/acf ppl =) i am amazed . just the fellowship and love they provide to me . i've never experience this kind of love within a fellowship and i am just so thankful for these ppl. i've realized that you can't really grow on your own...you can't. you need that support group . the ppl that love God and love you for being you . and that's what what i want other to experience. i 've never liked the cliqueness of churches and fellowships. that's why it's been so hard for me. to break that barrier. but now. i've changed. and now i want to make that change. to let EVERYONE know that God loves them through the love i provide for them. to know that someone's there to watch over you. someone who you can talk to . i want to be that person. like yeahh. i wanna reach out to all those ppl who feel isolated and just want to run away and hide rite aft fellowship or whatever. i wanna just let them know i'm out for them even if everyone's doing there own thing ...going withthe rest of the fellowship to dinner or somethign fun like that . and them just going bak to rez missing out cuz they just don't feel like they belong. and truly, i dotn' think that it hsould be that way. it just hurts me so much to see this happen. i was just htankful that hfriday to just go to delaware and just hang with ppl who just went straight back. i felt God calling me to be there for them. an di'm so thankful god has shown me this through my own past experience. i' m amazed by His love. .. that DOES endure forever. on fri before i came to acf, i went to lkcc Hi-C's "girl's night"..just sharing his love =) showing and providing His love to these young girls. just astonishes me. it's like my heart skkips a beat or soemthing . love. juts to provide and show the love of Christ to a person who feels like so out of place...i wanna be that person. bc now. i've experienced what truly love is all about. it the kind of sacrificial love . =) thank you god for speaking to me. Your love is unfailing andd forever and i am so truly blessed to experience this....HIs grace is all i need.